This year we had a couple of health scares in our family. It caused a lot of fear and anxiety. Thankfully, God answered our prayers. He delivered us yet again.
But this question lingers in my mind: what if He didn’t? What if this time, He chooses to be silent?
What will my life be like? Will my faith still stand firm? Will I still thank Him every morning?
When we are stressed about selling the house, I tell my husband: just trust in God.
When my friend battles with anxiety, I tell her: just trust in God.
What I am really saying is: everything will be ok. God will take care of this.
What if He doesn’t?
What if He chooses to hide His face from me when I need Him the most?
I always have questions for God when bad things happen:
“Why did you allow this to happen? When will you answer my prayer?“
But sometimes God has questions for me too:
“Do you really trust me?“
“Will you thank me even if things don’t go your way?“
Man, this is a heavy topic.
Because gosh, I don’t like problems, I don’t like trials; I don’t even like inconveniences in my life.
God chooses to love me even though I don’t deserve it.
So I need to choose to love God even in the times He is silent.
And I have to choose to trust when trusting is hard.
When I say I want to have a relationship with God, I need to remember that a relationship always takes two to make it work.
“Trust in Him at all times, you people; Pour our your hearts to Him, For God is our refuge.” Psalm 62:8